just beggining

an introduction of sorts, both to me and of me

Saturday, February 04, 2006

one more try


so heres a picture of me that i am trying to add to my profile, but it never seems to work...guess its too big, and i can't for the life of me figure out how to resize it...oh well...i guess it doesn't really matter, i just like pictures when i read these things...helps to remember im interacting with a human on some level...though i can't speak for all blogs or bloggers...oh well anyway...today is a new day, i have another chance at life...hope i don't screw up too bad this time...just want to live, love, make joy, sing, and be pleasant...we'll see how i do by tomarrow

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

just random thoughts

once again i am overcome by the desire to rant a little..or a lot...not sure where to start though. im 8 months pregnant, tired, deppressed a little, and with so much to do all the time and never time to do it really...or at least when i do have "time" i don't have energy...no that is all spent keeping up with my 15 month old daughter...yes that's right...they'll be 16 months apart...if this one ever comes out!!! oh i know s/he will, but it feels like next to never and just when i can't believe i could get any bigger i do...i won't even say how much i weigh...all i know is my ID still says 120, and though its been at least 3 yrs since ive seen that number on a scale i choose to believe i will one day again....now if it could just be while im standing on it!!!! ha...its so stupid really though how much weight matters to most women....i mean i don't think i even know a single girl thats fully comfortable with herself, her body anyway, and not even the drop dead gorgeous ones....soooooo n-e-ways...who cares...i love my children... i don't really feel robbed or anything, just particularly large at the moment... but i will mention that the lovliest woman in the world was kind enough to make aquaintence with me today and actually said i was TINY for 8 months!!!! God bless that woman!!! i swear if i had heard one more comment about twins before that i might've screamed! now i'm sure i can take it, cuz secretly i'll be believing theres at least one person in the world that thinks i'm not just not huge but TINY!!! i really think that may have made my week if not just my day....gosh after remembering that i even forgot what it was i wanted to complain about...cool!...and besides, my little munchkin's awake and i gotta go...